The Buddha Effect

So.. This is the result of Buddha bar... I met up with Akash..
And I really hope there will be something special between us.. Hope that fairy tale will come true!

Buddha madness!

Went to this bar, and it was so awesome! Hahahaa..
All that I can say is just OH MY GOD! Ahahhaaa...
Well.. Met this in gy.. And it just happen.. Shouldn't be happened.. But it just did..
Omg! I can't believe this! After all this? Well.. I really made a mistake.. Shouldn't do it next time bare back!
Daaaaaamn! I would never do it no more! Never ever!

i'm 18!!!

Here I am.. 18!
I wish for a whole better year for me..
Love, peace, joy, prosperity, glory and all that..
And especially, miracle..
I hope that this year will be just great!

That's that, for short.. All the bottom line..
With "ordinary miracle" song playing.. I pray and hope..
Amin!!

After about a year..

Hey readers.. (Not sure if anyone read this) It's me again.. Almost having my 18th birthday..
Well.. I really feel so nervous today.. Cause I really don't wanna have my birthday.. And I love being 17..
I love this age..

There are lots of wonderfull thing happen during the time..
Lots of adventure, madness, woww.. Can't say everything..
I wish that I was more a writing guy.. Well, I love to write.. But I'm a moody guy..
So, it's hard to deal with when you write a blog, and wish to have a total compleate one..
But starting from today, I intend to write almost everything, as I'm with  вιaсĸвεггч™ , it'll be easier.

I wanna say thank you to god.. Even I admid that this year was not a good year of me for him..
But, he's a great mighty lord that keeps faithfull along the way, even if we stand back..
Without the palm of his hand protecting me, I won't be able to take another breath this second.
Thanks god..

To my family.. It's a hard time indeed for us.. Lot's of problem.. Including to decide where I want to go to college..
Hahaha.. It's a major prob for me in this fam nowadays..
Me and my school.. Hmmm... Not so good..

Me with my social life? It's good.. Got lots of friends who are my own kind.. Hahhaa..
Well, I really make my self change much.. In style, personality, dream, and more..
This year is a turning point for me.. I dare to just be me.. Do what I wanna do whitout affraid of what people gonna say..
And I explore quite much about my self..

Go to singapore and malaysia for the 1st time on this age..
To bali for the 3rd time.. To the night club few times.. Hhahaa.. And last but not least.. Lost my "v"..
Hahahhaa.. Man! What an age I'm having!
Having lot's of friends..
It's just awesome!
When I was a kid, I always dream about being 17.. This is the age of my dream..
And right this age, I realize that time is precious thing indeed..
We can't turn the time back and fix things.. No! It happens only once..
So make everything max! Live more, laugh more, just don't pass it without doing nothing..
Life is too expensive to spend with just doing nothing and achieve nothing..

Ooh.. I also met this friend who change my life..
Hhahaha.. This transformation in me done with the help of him quite a lot.. And I really thank that we met..
I won't be quite known like now if there wasn't him..
I will just dreaming to be on top.. Hhaha..
Now that people know me..well, not that much, but at least I'm not invisible..

Today, is the last day that I call my self a 17years old boy.. Hmm...
I love 17.. Young, fresh, green, energetic..
And I love being called "berondong".. Hhihi.. Just so me.. Cause all my life I often surrounded by adults and I'm the only kiddo around..
Hhaahaa..

This year, I got almost everything that I wanted..
And I just feel like I'm just being me.. Do things I wanna do..
Make a decoration for my friend's 17 birthday with a 1 million salary.. Hhahaa

I learn things on this age..
Matureness, being faithfull, using head and heart both in dealing with love, learn that life can be so cruel and it's just don't always go the way we like..
You just gotta embrace it.. C'est la vie..

This age ( while I can say that I'm 17) I decide to work in fashion industry..
In the business part..

Have fun with my choir groups, and lots of things..
Hmm... How this year is very special for me..
I got my training @ dwidaya tour, wow..
This year is amazing!

Awesome!!

Extra ordinary!!

I wanna say: I'm 17!!!! I'm 17!!! 17!!! (While I still can say that I am..
11:48pm now.. Almost time so say good bye with my 17 age..
Sigh..

My 17th Birthday

Now, it's few days after my birthday (mar 4 09)
I feel so happy
Lots of unexpected person said "Happy birthday" to me
Heheee...
I guess, this year would be a full of fun and hard work year
Also lots of shopping
Plus, i'm going to Malaysia and Singapore next week... Hehhee
That add up my happiness
Tough it seem that i wont have lots of time to have shopping

I'm looking forward to have new clothes, shoes, accesories, and stuff...
I'm 17 now, and i wanna change my style
Plus i got little of shirt, pants, and fashion stuff
well, what can i say, less money, less shopping
But fortunately, my granny has lots of sgd (singapore dollar) and usd
So, it means iI'm gonna have some crazy shopping to do

This year, i hope i will be able to become more mature
And also hold my love in my arms
Until nowadays, my love hasn't changed at all
I love Mr. Marche still
Well, i think once again, I don't care if I'm being studip or not
I just love him
And I'm happy with it
My spirit just lift up everytime I remember him
He has become my inspiration, spirit, personal charger, motivator and friend
He's a great man
Who ever have him is a lucky person indeed
Well, i wish that peson will be me
Let's see..
I'm gonna celebrate my anniversary with him this Saturday
Hope it'll be so much fun!

The conclusion, this is the year of Love, Labels and hard work!

Love Me Tender...

Love me tender,
Love me sweet,
Never let me go.
You have made my life complete,
And I love you so.

Love me tender,
Love me true,
All my dreams fulfilled.
For my darlin I love you,
And I always will.

Love me tender,
Love me long,
Take me to your heart.
For its there that I belong,
And well never part.

Love me tender,
Love me dear,
Tell me you are mine.
Ill be yours through all the years,
Till the end of time.

When will i see your face again???

Here I Am, Everyday,
Since You Said, You'd Come Again,
But It's Not Fair, Cos You're Not Here,
I Wait In Vain, But Nothing Has Changed,

I'm A Flower, Soaking In The Rain,
If I Could Wish One Thing, I'd Hear You Call My Name,

(Chorus)
So When Will I See Your Face Again,
When Will You Touch My Life Again (ohh yeah),
When Will I Breathe You In Again,
I Think I Love You... Will I See Your Face Again?

(2nd Verse)

Little Thing, Like The Rain Coming,
She Looked At Me A Certain Kind Of Way,
Tell Me Girl, Where Are You Nowww,
'Cos I Don't Know How Much Longer I can Waaait,

I'm A Dreamer, Waiting For The Sun,
When You're Coming In, I know My Life's Begun,
Tell Me Girl...

(Chorus)

(Bridge)

You Know That All My Life I've Been Waiting,
Waiting For Someone, Someone Like You To Love Me,
You Can't Come By Like An Angel, Into My Life,
And then Fly Away, Fly Away,

Oh Honey, Cos I, Uh Baby, Ba Ba Doo Yeah, Ohh ohhhh,
Sing, I've Only Seen Youuu, Oh, I Said, Uh huh, I Said I Said, Yeah (woo)

(Chorus)

When Will I See Your Face Again (I Wanna See You Once In My Life),
When Will You Touch My Life Again, (Wanna See You Twice In My Life),
When Will I Breathe You In Again (ohhh),
I Think I Love Youuu, Will I See Your Face Again,

I said, see Bap pa da doo ba ba (ohhh),
Bap Ba Doo Yeah, That's What We Do Yeaahhh (ohh),
When Will iii See Your Face Again My Friend,
Oh Yeah, I Think You Gotta Let Me Know Yeah,
Ohh Yeahhh...

Only when i sleep...

"Only When I Sleep"

You're only just a dreamboat sailing in my head
You swim my secret oceans
Of coral blue and red
Your smell is incense burning Your touch is silken yet
It reaches through my skin And moving from within
It clutches at my breast

But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

And when I wake from slumber Your shadow's disappear
Your breath is just a sea mist Surrounding my body
I'm workin' through the daytime
But when it's time to rest
I'm lying in my bed Listening to my breath
Falling from the edge

[Chorus]
It's only when I sleep

[Sharon & Andrea solo]

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

It's reaching through my skin
Movin' from within
And clutches at my breasts...

[Chorus]

In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

But it's only when I sleep... aaaaaaa....
Got me spinning round and round
(Turning upside-down)

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High
But it's only when I sleep...

[Fade out]

Kevin And Toby Again... So sweet

DKNY Nu Delicious Fragrance

So Delicious!

Nu Cool Fragrances

These are great fragrances! And so worth trying...

Nu Fragrance By Armani

Nice Fragrance from emporio armani. It's sweet yet facinating

Fave Pics From Twilight

Twilight

What a movie. This movie is kinda have an usual theme of story, but it tells nicely and it is fascinating. I watched this movie for like 5 times. And I have no idea why i can easily repeat the dialogs from this movie. Huahahahahahaa.. Can't wait the 2 session of d movie^^

Oh Well

Nowadays, I don't really care about finding my true love. I think true love will come, to me when the time is right. So, now i better concentrate with my school. Plus, i got so many bad mark. Huxhux^^! Well, Guru Pitka said in the love guru movie staring Mike Myers "To get people love you, you have to love your self" I guess it's totally right. Cause i have trough such condition that make me have to choose between giving someone i love what i can give, and having a self respect. I think i have sacrifice my own self respect not in the right time and unfortunately that person didn't respect what i have given to him.

Well, I don't wanna be fool for anyone right now. I'm done with those kind of things. I'm more into "Intimacy" or we can say "In to me I see"(The Love Guru) And I wanna keep on following my heart never my emotion. "What ever decision you make, let comes from your heart"(Princess Diaries 2) And so i will seek deep inside my heart, does the decision I'm about to take comes from my heart or it's just my emotion.

And I'm not gonna waste my time for something that not even sure where to lead. So, I think for now, I'm gonna use my head more than my heart. Well, 50 50 I guess...

My 1st year anniversary

Today is my 1st year anniversary of being out as a rainbow flag. And the date Dec 11 is taken from the date when i went out with Mr.R back in the day. Well, that was my first step...!
Yeehaa!

May I love you still?

I miss you…
I miss to send as much text as I can
Asking you how are you doing
And just to communicate to each other

But, because I pulled my self back from you, I only can text you to say good night
Good morning
Or good luck with your job
And only once you reply me to say thanks

You are always on my mind
You
Are always on my mind

Always
Always
Always
Always on my mind…

Can’t forget the first time we visit that incredible place
Where we took few pics
The place of where peace found
Where there is eternity
Which I also hope that our love one day could be

But, no I decide to step back for real
For the greater good
I’ll do it for you

This ring I use
Which I hope will be placed in your finger
Cause for me, you’re the right person who deserve my ring and me
I’ve told you how much this mean to me
Well, this ring expresses my self
If you see, it’s nothing special
But if you have connection by touching it
You know that it’s special, by its form
Hard to explain by written

Well, all my life I’ve been waiting for someone who could make my light shine shed free
I want to give my best to someone who’s right for me
I ‘m not a kind of person who can just give my love around

So now, let the angel of heaven above
Bare and guard my ring and love for you
Let it be eternal for me

My love for you…

Wonderful Expirience

Last Saturday, i went home by my self. And there were this traveler from france that asked the bus driver where does he has to stop to reach the old city. The bus driver can't answer him in english, so i help him, cause guess that i'm the only person who could. hehehee^^ So, i told him that he has to stop in the stasiun kota shulter. Then we stop there. After we got off from the bus, he seem kinda confuse, so i helped him and walk along together.

I explain to him that i'm in the tourism high, so it's not a strange thing for me to do. Sooner or later i will do such things right? After we got out of the shulter, i asked him where did he want to go. Then i help him to find the right hotel that he wanted, travel agent and to the internet cafe for short... I spend half day with him around... What a day!

He told me that he's a traveler from France, and he has been traveling for 8 months! He has visited tibet, thailand, vietnam, africa, there are some other place, and the last place is indonesia and jakarta, then he will be back to France at 9th i guess, if he confirmed the booking back in the day...

Nice guy, who give me precious expirience...

Toby And Kevin's Sweet Kiss

True loves kiss

What a fairy tale...

My pics... Hehehee^^

Loving the Impossible

This is how love could be so crazy

This is a true story about me, and…
Let’s say Mr. Marché
I actually have already wrote about him few times
I guess you understand how crazy someone could be when they fall in love
Well, I’m going to do my best as one of those people

I’d like to say that my first love, also who I think until nowadays as my true love, is nothing like me… You know what I mean… (Let’s say, rainbow flag)
How I never expect to fall for him…
Well, he seems to be like me sometime
But, I just feel that he’s not
Somehow I just can feel it

Well, I’m happy to being in love with him
Cause, even though I know that he’s different from me
I still love him deeply

Dream about him several times
My heart beating so damn fast when first I got into his car
Oh my God! I just couldn’t help my self

Freaky me, I always think that he’s actually a person like me, who haven’t find out the truth about him self or maybe just kinda confuse or something like that
Then, I decided to stick around and hoping that something beautiful will happen..
Hehehehee..
Lunatic enough huh?

But, even though he may be “such people person” and haven’t relies about that, I want him to just be like that
I don’t want him to change…
Considering that his age is good enough for him to find a perfect bride for him
And not a groom...
He got a nice family, good life, nice person, the women that one day will hold his hands is a luckiest women indeed
He loves his mom, and that’s what I like from him. A man who loves his mom will love his couple and treat her as well as he treat his mother… 
Love doesn’t break someone’s life
So, I won’t disturb his life with mine

I also don’t deny that I still hope for him
I’ll always remember him
Even though we’re not gonna be together, I guess I prefer the best thing to happen
Some of the sweet songs in my mp3 remind me of him
The lyrics…
They express how I feel for him

I think about him a lot…
How sweet would it be to be in his arms?
Hug him…
Dancing through sweet tender music
Hugging him so tight until fall asleep in his arms
Both awake in a dawn and just silently looking into each other’s eyes
Speechless…
The only words come out…
I love you
Then in the morning, wake up with sun light in each other’s face
Give a light kiss
And say, “Good morning my love.”

Well, what the heck…
Love also let go right?
Or nope?
Well I guess, I choose to remain silence, and forever be his secret admire…

I once imagine
If he ask me, to be his
I’m going to answer
“I do, with all my heart I do!”

What a fairy tale…

My first love

This is the story of my first love
Who I will always love deep inside

Let’s just say his name is  Mr. Marche

Well, let’s begin the story

That was few days after I step my feet in my new school
If I’m not mistaken, it was Tuesday in July 2007
I was charmed from the 1st time I saw him
Good looking, friendly kind of person
Somehow cute
My inspiration
Mysterious
But I know he’s an interesting person somehow

Well, funny things about him are:

He wore tight pants. Well it’s not that he used it on purpose, he maybe don’t relies that his pants is getting legs are getting too big for that pants he called working pants. He didn’t use that pants again now a days, cus I told him about that

He rarely laughs at is own jokes… The rest of the students laugh but not he
I have no idea what was he trying to do. Maybe just to keep his image

He also used to ask me do I understand about the lesson or nope…
And the crazy thing when he asked me was that my friends yelling at both of us and says “ciieeeeee” (Indonesian accent to say ooh) Oh my God… They really embarrassed me back in the day. Until one day they shouted that crazy voice again when he asked me again, and I just could close my face with my book and hide my face from him and answered I understand and I just couldn’t help the blush!

Well, those are the things

I just couldn’t keep my eyes of him
I also can’t take my eyes of his shoe!
Hahahahahaa… I love that show a lot until I buy a pair a little much like that

When I was in the 10th grade, I really wanna talk with him
Just know him more
But, what could I say; I don’t have any change to say a word
But than came the right moment
He taught me how to make a ticket (cus I’m in tourism high school)
There are few other students that he taught
But considering that I’m a not easily understanding some lesson
My ticket hasn’t finished yet
So, every student went home already, and there was me and him
He waited me for about one hour or maybe half an hour…
Well, all I knew that I was so thrilled!

He patiently taught me
Until I finished my ticket

What a person…

Then, we keep in touch by sending text, e-mails, and calls
He supported me when I needed bunch of them

Then we finally went out together
We visit this awesome museum called Museum Prasasti
Taking pictures, then went to mall
Hang out in starbucks
Then he took my home
He’s a gentleman

We like to share movie and music
He know that I love enchanted movie so much
He gave me the soundtrack
My favorite brand is also his
The bottom line is that we have similar taste
Music, movie, style

The plus thing about our relationship is that we start our relation with just being friend
No other motive
Though I finally fall for him
But all that I do and done is never to find any of his attention
I do everything because I wanted to
Not Because I have to

I dream about him in my dream
Miss to call him, text him
To know about him more and more
It’s a wonderful thing to know everything about him

There are so many things to tell about him
But, let’s get into the other part of sweet part

I’m not sure he has any feeling for me
And his much older than me
And his age is mature enough to find someone eligible to married with
I don’t think I’ll bother his life my love

I once wanna tell him about my feeling
But after thinking
I don’t think that is a wise choice to take
Because, I don’t him change because hearing that I love him
I don’t want him to go away from me
I think I better let it be like this
I choose to remain silent

Lots of poem made for him
He’s my first love
My true love
My heart’s true desire

If he ask me to be with him I think I’m gonna say
“I do, with all my heart and soul I do!”
 At last…

But I guess that’s another story
But will it be happening?
That’s a mystery…

Recomended Fragrance By Mee.. You guys ask, and so i bring on the list..

                                                                 Davidoff, Cool  Water
                                                                    Escada, Sunset Heat

                                                      Ermenegildo Zegna, Acqua D'estate                                                                   Hilary Duff, With Love

I haven' try Acqua D'estate, and With Love. So I don't really confince that it's good enough according to me.. Well, enjoy the fragrance then..^^

Hugggg.... Song for Mr. Marche..

Once I say I love you, I think you would be gone (oh baby)
Cause we are too young to love so I can say later on, hold you in my arms

But I will be waiting for you, to say you want me to be with you
I'll live in your love and your dreams forever and ever (oh)

Whenever you look in my eyes, there are so many smiles and tears on
I was born to love, feel so deep inside
If you need me, I'll be your man (I'll be your man)

Whenever you look in my eyes, I do want to show you my love
I make up my mind, make your dreams come true
Nobody can stop me to say "I love you"

How can I ask you how still you're looking for other words (oh baby)
Since love should still make me when I try to fight all alone, but I can't at all

We talk on the phone everynight, and so get closer day by day
I touch you, I kiss you, I hold you to feel but a dream


Whenever you look in my eyes, there are so many smiles and tears on
I was born to love, feel so deep inside
If you need me, I'll be your man (I'll be your man)

Whenever you look in my eyes, I do want to show you my love
I make up my mind, make your dreams come true
Nobody can stop me to say "I love you"

[In my heart, in my soul, I want to hold you baby
You don't know how much I love you, do you baby ... Like a sun rising up I can't stop loveing you... Can't hold it anymore]

Whenever you look in my eyes, there are so many smiles and tears on
I was born to love, feel so deep inside
If you need me, I'll be your man (I'll be your man)

Whenever you look in my eyes, I do want to show you my love
I make up my mind, make your dreams come true

Nobody can stop me to say "I love you"

DBSK

Dante's Cove

Dante's Cove

Cool Movie i watched recently...

And the two pic above is both my fave actor in DC Adam and Toby!

Hahahahahhhaaaa..^^

Haven't watched it??

Well you better be

Soon..!

This is Toby and Adam:

And here is the theme song: